the butter isn't soft yet

Spotify just went down everywhere. Hoping it comes back soon. I need my new tune fix.

I wasn’t expecting to go to a Halloween party last night. When I found out I was I definitely wasn’t expecting to be the sober driver. But I was. Another party with Clay, Chad, Benson and Ariel. Another party with their co-workers. Ever since a few weeks before my brother got that job I have been hanging around with them. They’re a cool crowd, people I would introduce myself to. There just hasn’t been much time to get to know everybody so I was prepared to stay sober, have a pleasant time and get out of there kind of early. I had a dentist appointment later anyways.

We got to the party late, but it was definitely still happening. I kept my beers close and mingled, it was cool and I even wore a costume. I left the guitar at home this time though so I could actually involve myself in the party. I was feeling really good! I had plenty left to drink and I wanted a cigarette so I stepped outside and lit up, it was worth the shivering although it wasn’t necessary. People carried their smokes into the garage and I followed, probably in the middle of some funny conversation. I was finally feeling more than comfortable. Knowing names and being known anyways, felt good. I walk in the garage and that feeling went right out the window like a caged animal released after weeks of being locked away and all alone. I looked around and very quickly met eyes with a girl across the room. She had a lot going for her, she was smiling when I first saw her and the gorgeous expression stayed with her all night. It was at that moment I felt like a stranger all over again, and I couldn’t be happier to introduce myself just as quickly. But it was taking me longer than I had expected.

Now I talk to people all the time, I love to go right in and introduce myself, make myself known but now I felt different. I was shocked to find myself extremely nervous. I had to get out of that garage for a while. I regrouped with my friends, smoked what we had brought and felt a little more confident. Later I went back into the garage, I was going to say hello. I was going to anyways, until she introduced herself. I’m glad she did.